Looking back on the healing process that took place in my life to bring me to where I am today I know in my heart of hearts that this is how it happened. I thank God for giving me the opportunity to share this with you.
After some great trials I went through I was completely broken and had to rely on Him to restore my mind and heart to wholeness. This is how I began that journey. I know it came from the Lord because on my own I had little strength.
The greatest key to my healing was spending dedicated time alone with the Lord – just me and Him. I would crawl in bed each night and start talking to Him about everything, just as I would a friend in person. There were so many things, worries and concerns going through my mind. I began by telling Him about my day and what my concerns were.
What began to happen is that His Spirit would move within me as I began pouring out my heart to Him and I would start to find transformations taking place in my mind during those conversations. I would become amazed at how the Lord was guiding the conversations and the wisdom I found coming out of my heart and mind as I talked to Jesus. I had to dig really deep into how I was feeling down to the smallest detail of my concerns. Sometimes it was difficult to even express my thoughts but the Lord in His mysterious ways would open up my mind and help me to share some of these concerns I didn’t even know I had that were weighing on my heart.
I would spend this time with Him each night for a period of time and it became my favorite time of the day. I would get so excited to crawl into bed at night and begin that conversation with Him. What happened was this – I began to know in my heart of hearts that because I was spending this dedicated time with Him that He would honor that time and would take care of me the next day no matter what it held.
I knew that I didn’t have to worry during the day because I had already poured out my heart and concerns to Him – now it was up to Him to start moving in my life. I surrendered it all. Day by day, month by month, and year by year I began to see progress in my life and my strength and confidence in myself and Him began to grow. For me I would say it took about five years of healing and growing to get to a place of full restoration and to a place of deep trust to really know that He was faithful because He kept showing me over and over His faithfulness as He got me through my daily trials.
I know that seems like a really long time, but I had a tremendous amount of healing that needed to take place from all the wounds and scars I had from years and years of hardships. God’s healing and restoration that brings freedom happens on His time table and it can happen in a day or in months or even years as it was in my case. We just have to be patient with God and patient with ourselves.
Yes, my true healing happened because I spent dedicated time with the Lord. Sometimes my conversations would even last up to a few of hours – I don’t know how I could possibly have done that but I would get lost in these conversations and then look at the time and was amazed that the conversation had lasted that long. God brought people into my life to stand by my side and help me on my journey. He knows exactly what we need.
I certainly did not spend this amount of time all the time. I would just spend this time as I felt led by the Lord and knew that He would draw me into this time with Him when He wanted to teach me and help me to grow and learn. Even if it was just five minutes, it was still time with the Lord. There is no perfect formula on how this healing and freedom which leads to great peace takes place. This is just how it happened for me. It may work the same for you or God may do it in a different way. His ways are always higher than our ways and His thoughts are higher than our thoughts. As long as we keep seeking His face, we are always headed in the right direction.
I hope that these words help some of you on your journey to freedom. I feel honored that the Lord has given me a platform to share with others – that is amazing to me!
Thank you all for your openness and willingness to read my thoughts – you are all beloved of the Lord and He cherishes each and every one of you.
One parting thought and this was a very important part of my journey to freedom. I memorized the verse below. As I would become anxious or worried, I would deeply reflect on each word and as I recited the scripture, by the time I got to the end of the verse I would feel my worries begin to melt away.
May peace and comfort rest upon your heart each and every day.
In His love,
Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.
Written by Dana Howard 5/30/13